Hello Grandma, I'm trying to get my head together now I know it's what you would want, don't laugh but I've bought myself a fish and tank, an adult colouring book and enrolled on a course that's if I get accepted but I'm just trying to dig myself out of this mental mess I'm in, I can't keep crying and thinking negatively all the time, I need to be myself again but that doesn't mean that I don't think of you because I do but I'm trying to think of the happy times because if I don't I will get depressed, I miss you so much and I love you forever xxxxx